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jadefyre's freedom
22 October 2011 @ 11:08 pm
There's something about you
That I want to hold onto
I want to share in your musings
And not feel like I'm using
you just for your creative mind.

Every line that I reword,
My writing has suffered
My rhythm won't flow,
And in case you didn't know
I'm doing this because you inspired me to.

So many I've forgotten
Things I ought not, and
The inspiration of others
like sisters and brothers
Have reminded me of what I want to be.

Sometimes I do it to impress
And it causes mere distress
I only hope that you notice,
and realize that this
is written about you and for you, so that you'll know.
 
 
how i'm feeling: artisticartistic
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
I am mad at you.
But I cannot dwell
I cannot change your mind
No matter if I tell
Of the pain and of the heartache
And isolation that you seek
I cannot change your mind
If you won't listen to me speak
I can't tell you that it's wrong
or pretend that it's right
Because you either won't listen to me
or it'll cause a fight
I'll tell you that I disagree
and that I care 'bout important things
it hurts your spirituality
you can't fly with broken wings.
He won't help you mend them
He'll only make it worse
It's not to late to stop it now
And throw it in reverse
It's not too late to start again
And do life right this time
It's okay to leave him behind you
Trust me hon, it's not a crime.
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
23 June 2011 @ 10:17 pm
I don't want you to tell me it'll be okay
I just want these problems to go away
I know I shouldn't worry if it's beyond my control
But the stresses are starting to take their toll
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
30 May 2011 @ 10:45 pm
Days and weeks
With nothing
And suddenly it all comes pouring out
Verse by verse, stanza by stanza

I want profound discussions about love and chocolate and lightning
And to kiss in the rain
and walk down the beach at ungodly hours of the morning
While you're still half-asleep

There's a lot that I want
That I'll never have, because of our differences
And the one important difference
But I cannot expect you to change
(even if I really want you to)
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
30 May 2011 @ 10:31 pm
And since when is it too soon to say, "I love you"?
She asked me today.
Since the thought of those three words is commitment
And I'd like to keep all desire of that to myself
Otherwise I'd scare them away

There is care, obviously there is that
But apparently my biggest trust issue is with myself
because I don't know how I'll feel after I say it
And it's like my collateral
If I don't say it, then I will always want to.
 
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
23 May 2011 @ 01:17 am
There are shadows in this world
And wouldn't you know it, I find them
They are dark places fit for brooding
And so I sit and I fret and I ponder

I worry about what is minuscule
I stress about what I cannot change
And the shadows don't seem to disappear
Though the sun has risen again

Maybe they don't disappear
because I hide behind them and unconsciously,
I seek their "refuge" from the truth
Someone needs to take it away.

There are shadows in this world,
and wouldn't you know it, I find them
They are dark places fit for brooding
And so I sit and I fret and I ponder

Until someone takes it away
And the light is let in, little by little
And my heart opens up, and I cease to worry
And just glide with the wind in my mind

And Someone watches intently
and he helps me land safely,
and at failure to do this, helps me to my feet
You would be that Someone to make my life complete.
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
15 May 2011 @ 11:27 pm
No necesito una razón
Decirte lo que me eres.

No necesito una canción de cuna
cuando tengo la piensa de tu toca.

No necesito el mundo
si miras dentro de mis ojos

No necesito algo más
que tú.

--
I do not need a reason
To say what you are to me

I do not need a lullaby
When I have the thought of your touch

I do not need the world
if you look into my eyes

I do not need anything more
than you
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
15 May 2011 @ 10:36 pm
Esta poema es en español porque me gusta confundirte de vez en cuando. <3 ¡Te quiero!
También, quieres una oda... entonces escribiré una.

El hueco en la tierra tiene mis pies
Y los cielos tienen mi cabeza
Estoy dividida entre los dos
Y no sé por qué no puedo decidir.

El mar me llama,
y el bosque me lleva más cerca
No sé cuál camino tomar
Al norte, al sur, o al sureste o oeste

¿Vas a ayudarme a decidir?


quince de mayo, 2011
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
10 May 2011 @ 09:50 pm
Why do you still have that power over me?
Why do you have to show up in my life?
Why not move away like you said you would,
months and months ago.

I cannot believe this is happening
Why am I crying again?
I do not want you to die,
But I want you to be as good as dead.

Gone, forever.
I will never get that time in my life back
And it's all because of you
And because I was too weakwilled to resist

You greedy bastard.
Take advantage of a girl who should know better
But who didn't
Leave emotional scars all over her invisible spirit

Wounds that she thought had healed
But apparently had not
Scars that will be forever
And they're all because of you.
 
 
jadefyre's freedom
04 May 2011 @ 07:48 pm
I trust you.
Don't **** up.